I won't be on for a really long time except to maybe clear up some space, reply to messages and make a random journal every now and again. so don't get all excited that I'm back, cause technically I'm not..
any way I'm going to blow off some steam for a while so if you don't want to hear this don't.


Kay. It's been almost six years sense my cat Peaches died, and even though it's been so long, I still really miss her. I have a cat of my own but I'm still feeling heart ache. Things just aren't the same as they were back then. the cat I have now is so well... detached from the family, it drives my crazy, I want him in the house but my mom won't allow it. I let him in anyway just because I cant stand him being out there, I let him in when my mom isn't around or paying attention, but it still hurts, Peaches was the best cat anyone could have, she wasn't fussy about anything she loved attention and sought it often, she was just an all around great cat.
  Anyway, I've been thinking about my future as a mother an a wife, I 've really given it a lot of though, I am not married though so don't take this as I am. cause I'm not... yet...-_-.  anyway when you think about the future you often think about where you're going to go and see and where you're going to live and what type of guy you're going to marry. well, in case anyone is still reading this here's my expectations. 1) he's got to be 21-22 because I'm 20. 2) he's got to be temple worthy, and I'm talking about the Church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints worthy. 3) He's got to have a good paying job 4) he's got to have a sense of humor 5) has to be good with kids 6) has to know how to cook at least decently well. 7) cannot be allergic to animals. I know it's a lot to ask for but those are what I'm looking for, because I have really big plans.
   So you heard I have really big plans for the future right? well these are my plans, first I'm going to start our children's college fund early starting with 20 every couple weeks from our annual salary. by the time my kids get old enough maybe they'll be able to go to college. Then we're going to also save up for a tour of europe. We're going to have a cat a dog and a fish, and that's all I'd be able to handle really. We're also going to save up for our retirement. maybe someday we'll go on a tour of Japan, that's been one of my long life dreams. anyway. those are some of my plans I have more but who knows, life throws unexpected curve balls at you so I cant expect too much out of it. anyway. if you listened to that whole thing I'm impressed. and thanks for listening. bye.